ag·o·ny n. from Middle English agonie, from Old French, from Late Latin agonia, from Greek agonia, from agon, struggle, from agein, to drive.

I hope it is over now.  The end begins when one realizes that nemeses are not to be fought but to be made peace with.

So tell me a tale, make it epic
So cry me a tear, make it blood
So carve me a new hole for a heart
A child learns
An adult lives
When does education end and living begin?
Living in fear of a life of sin
Is learning and living, all within
One experience, one point of view
One so worthless because it's not two
Or three or four, maybe more
Only one go at this life that doesn't rewind
You wish your God was this kind
Delude yourself, get over the pain
Of being born, again and again
Everyday a new you, but I'm still me
You think you're special, but you live in antiquity
You're still alive, don't you know
When you've learned to live you'll know you live to learn